The Star of Option

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Foreword
I like the solution in Clockwork Princess, but I would prefer another one, which I am writing down now. The Story will be written from Jem's Point Of View and Cecily's Point Of View.

Prolouge
Jem's POV

"Hello," said the girl, in a voice both surprisingly soft and surprisingly firm. "I apologize for interrupting your dinner hour, but I had nowhere else to go. I am Cecily Herondale, you see. I have come to be trained as a Shadowhunter."

Jem stared at her. She had the beautiful black hair, that Will had and her eyes were this dark blue, that was so rare.

She looked so much like Will, that Jem's heart ached.

He loved Will and Tessa, but now, there was this Will. This female Will and Jem felt his heart stutter twice, when Cecily stared over to him.

They locked eyes and Jem froze. He felt Tessa press his hand once and he wanted to pull it away from her. All he cared about in that moment was him and that girl.

Charlotte was the first to react. She stood up and introduced herself. "I'm Charlotte Branwell, leader of this Institute. That is Henry, my husband." Charlotte pointed at the freckled, red haired man.

He stepped forward and shook Cecily's hand. Cecily smiled and it was a beautiful smile. It showed her straight, white lined teeth and Will went over to Cecily.

"We can introduce later. I need to talk to her. Cecily!" Will said in a hard voice, he was trembling and Jem went over to him.

"Will!", Jem said softly and Will looked at him. His gaze was as hard as his voice and if Jem hadn't known better he would have thought there were tears in his eyes.

"No James!" Will said angrily as if he knew what Jem would ask. Jem rolled his eyes  and looked over too Cecily.

"Sorry, he is always moody. Are you hungry? If yes, than eat now and I will talk to Will!" Jem said friendly and hoped for a smile and he did recieve one. Jem felt Tessa's look on his back and he turned to smile and her, but it stuck on his face. Usually, when he saw Tessa, he felt his heart stutter and leap. But this time it was different.

This time, he just felt sadness. What was wrong with him? Was he about to die? Was the Yin Fen stopping to work?

Jem turned to Cecily again and motioned her to sit. This time his heart stuttered and leaped. He tried to ignore the feeling and pulled Will to get out of the door. Still trying to ignore the stutter and leaping of his heart.

1. The kiss
Jem's POV It had been hard for Jem to convince Will to let Cecily stay. But in the end, his parabatai had agreed.

Cecily was already with the Shadowhunters for one Week and Jem felt his love for Tessa in a different way. He started to love her like a sister, not like fiancee. Tessa had been trying to catch Jem on the hallway or corridor, because he was starting to avoid her. Even at dinner, Jem wouldn't even look at Tessa and one day, Tessa had managed.

"Jem!", Tessa called. She ran toward him and her sea-gray eyes looked at him. Jem stopped walking and looked over to her.

"Tessa, what is it?", Jem said impatiently. He really wanted to go on the carriage with Will and Cecily, to spend time with Cecily. "Jem!", Tessa repeated and sounded hurt."You've been avoiding me, why Jem?"

Jem sighed and decided to say, what he had thought, he'd never say. He went down on his knees and pulled Tessa hand with him. "Tessa...", he said full of longing sadness and regret. Tessa stared at him in surprise and tried to ignore her look full of hope.

"I love you. You know that, do you? But I can't marry you." Jem said and looked away. When he looked back at Tessa, he saw tears shimmering in her eyes and she turned away from him. By the Angel, what had he done?

"Why?", she whispered. "Because, I fell in love with her. Will's sister.", and when Jem said Cecily, the name, it was so full of love, that Tessa ran away crying. Then, once she turned around. "Why James Carstairs?",  she said and hurried away.

Cecily POV

"WILL! Please, let's wait for Jem. He promised, he'd come.", Cecily begged. Will rolled his eyes. "Cecy, we can't wait half our lives for Jem, yes I know he's my parabatai, he does have to take care of his wedding!", Will's voice shook slightly at those words and Cecily's eyes darkened.

"Fine, then let's go. But YOU deal with Jem, if he's mad. Maybe he's just taking his medicine and it's taking longer.", Cecily snapped and went into the carriage and closed her eyes. Will was harder to deal with than the world.

When Cecily had stepped into the dining room her look had first fallen on this beautiful silver hair coloured boy and she had to drag her mind from him. To remind herself, she was here to save Will from these bastards. Then she had turned and saw his.

Cecily remembered very well, that her mother had said that Will would grow to a handsome man and Cecily had to approve when she saw him in the dining room. His hair was dark gleaming and his blue eyes the rare colour, that she had too.

Voices drew Cecily back into the present.

"Jem! How could you do that?", Cecily heard Will snapping.

"I had to. Why would I lie  to Tessa?", Jem said softly and Cecily's heart sank. They were talking about Tessa. Cecily jumped out of the carriage and ignored the blood shooting into her veins when she saw Jem.

"What's going on?", Cecily asked, trying to keep her voice bright.

"Jem broke up his engagement with Tessa!", Will growled and Cecily's eyes widened. She could truly understand Will's anger. Cecily wasn't a Fan of Tessa, but doing that to the poor girl was horrible. She stared at Jem and wondered how on earth he was able to do something so mean.

"I will speak to Tessa. You better leave her alone, Mr. Carstairs.", Cecy said, adressing him by his formal name.

When Cecily hurried out of the parking of the Institute, she started to run toward Tessa's room. Suddenly, something held her at her arm. Jem.

"Leave me. I have to deal with a problem you caused so let me.", Cecily hissed. Jem's eyes looked at her pleadingly.

"Don't go, please Cecy. I told Tessa something about you and..." Jem stopped talking and coughed slightly, but no blood sprayed on his arm.

"What did you tell, Carstairs?", Cecily said dangerously. Jem stepped cloer to her. Just one step and bent down to her. His head was dangerously close to hers and his arms slipped down her body, just before their lips met.

Cecily felt lightheaded. The kiss deepened and their tongues met. Jem's hand wandered down her body, when a hustle interrupted them.

Will.

2. The trouble
Jem's POV

Cecily had been sent to her room and still could Jem feel the kiss on his lips. He remembered, how his hands slid over her body and her tongue had come. Jem felt guilty, he was hurting Tessa in some way and he didn't want to.

"JAMES! Are you listening?! You can't go on like that, with Cecy. She's just fifteen!", Will was snapping, this time it wasn't the usual snapping, but the real worry about Cecily and him.

"So? What if that is what she wants?", Jem answered softly. He had changed the last week so much. He wasn't as gentle as he used to be, but just harsh and nice to Cecy.

A growl came out of Will's throat. "If you are a good parabatai to me, you would stop going under Cecy's underwear!"

"Being parabatai has nothing to do with the fact that I love a girl, that is your sister!", Jem hissed, his eyes were slits and Will looked shocked.

"You love Cecily, not Tessa?", he whispered. His blue eyes widened.

"Yes, and that's why I broke the engagement! i don't want a relationship full of lies!", Jem snapped. His silver eyes were blazing and Will swallowed.

"You love her? You  care for her? Then leave her alone!", Will blazed. Jem raised his eyes and looked  right into Will's blue eyes.

"You always wanted the best for me, hm? Please, I know Cecy is your sister, but she is what I want. Really!"

Will's face was still an angry mask and he looked even madder. "I suffered so much, just to make you happy, but what did you do. You broke Tessa's heart, and broke mine at the same time. And now you are going after Cecily. What if she will be pregnant? You will have to marry her, but how will you manage to live another 3 years, so you cna marry her?", Will spat.

"What did you suffer Will, when I was with Tessa? You even tried to protect her for me, so what did you suff...", Jem stopped suddenly, realizing what Will had suffered. Will had loved Tessa too, but he had let Jem be with her, only because he wanted that Jem was happy. And Jem felt miserable. He felt so miserable, he went on his knees and looked at Will once again.

"Will, I am so sorry, that I didn't realize you were in love with Tessa. I would have never, never planed to marry her. But it is over now with her and me. You can have her, you know. But we both know, I will not live long anymore, I will die soon and I will go with the same argument I went with a few months  ago. I want to enjoy the rest of my live and I promise you, I will not hurt anyone, especially not your sister, only because I want to enjoy the rest of my live."

Jem's parabatai was still for a long time and all Jem could here was there light breaths and then Will started to speak.

3.On the Highway
Cecily's POV

Cecily felt shame. Deep shame. She had stolen Tessa's fiance, and had kissed Jem and almost let him see a lot of her body. But Will had saved her. He had made sure Jem had not come so close. But somehow, Cecily felt mad. Why did Will have to come right then.

A knock made Cecily come back to reality and softly she said, come in. It was Jem.

He told her he loved her and said, he was about to die and that they had to spent time together until he died and then he kissed her again, before Cecy could say a word.

He started there were they had stopped in the hall. His tongue slid in her mouth and it tasted like burnt sugar, it kind of prickled on her tongue. She made her lips open a bit more and pressed her tongue against his. His hands went over her figure and rested on her hips. She was wearing a gear, not a dress and softly, Jem drew off her shirt, making her stand infront of him in a bra. Cecily stopped kissing, breathing hard and saw Jem leaving his eyes on her breasts.

She pressed the breasts against his chest and kept on kissing him, tearing of his fine shirt and throwing it on the floor. Jem stepped back against the wall and Cecy felt something on the bottom of his pants moving toward her.

Jem managed to get out of his pants and stood infront of her in his underpants and his hands wandered to Cecy's pants also taking them off softly. And that is how they stood infront of each other and Cecy pulled him toward her bed.

Jem's POV

When they were lying on the bed, Jem couldn't stop himself tearing of her underpants and his own. Her bra, Cecy took off herself and then they were lying next to each other. Jem could barely stop himself flying on top of Cecy, but she was just lying there.

She had an arm around his shoulder and the other was covering her breasts. They weren't really lying under the covers of the bed, just Cecily's legs. Jem felt Cecy wasn't ready for the next. She just wanted to lie on the bed. That Jem could find out himself.

"I think, we should put on our clothes again..." Cecily whispered and stood up from the bed, accidentally touching his genitals and that was when Jem felt a big errection.

He felt it flow and Cecy's eyes widened when she saw that. She was standing next to him and Jem stood up, he pushed her roughly to the wall, realizing she was very high-breasted, yet beautiful.

Her eyes widened and he pressed his body against hers, wanting to reach her. But she pressed against him, like telling him no. He was almost unable to stop himself.

Instead he slipped his hands down to her hips and down, carrying her on his hips. Kissing, he opened the door of her room, knowing that everyone was doing stuff and knowing in this corridor no one slept, except for Cecily.

As they stepped into the hall, his errection flew even harder, as her hands also went down, and he closed her room door softly, leading them into the next bedroom, so nobody would find them and locked the door.

He let Cecily fall on the floor and wanted to reach and pick her up, when he felt an even bigger errection. He flung himself on her and this time she cringed, and Jem knew she didn't want to. But he wanted, so desperatly he held her still and whispered softly.

"I love you, I will never hurt you!" He felt her stop pressing him away and slowly, he let his body on hers, making her grunt softly and when he was about to go in her, his genital was tickling her, she pushed him away, breathing hard.

Her eyes wandering over his body and his errected genital. "What are we doing?", she said. "I need you, I do and I want to experience this with you, before I die. My intuition tells me this is right." Jem answered.

And then she stepped over to him again, touching him on the bottom again, this time on purpose, making him feel just too errected. "Go ahead...", she murmured. They fell on the ground.

Jem made his hands go to her and he kissed her breast, torturing himself, not going in her. She was caressing him at the bottom and this time they were lying next to each other. Then he turned her, again letting himself down her very slow and was lying on her. His genital seemed to tickle hers again and then he went in more.

Cecily's POV

Cecily felt him go in, it seemed to tear her bottom open and she moaned. His errection, seemed to push her and then he went in and out.

He went in a bit in the beginning, deepening it more and more he started a good rythim, going in and out.Then he went faster and faster, his errection growing more and more and there kisses deepening too.

Then Cecy and Jem moaned, hard, grunted and their legs twined around each other.

And then they couldn't anymore. Slowly again, Jem pulled himself out and they lay next to each other.

But Cecy could still see his errection and touched his genital softly as if saying again and Jem lifted his eyes into hers and this time he drove quickly in her, biting her breasts, grunting, making her feel pain, just like she made him feel pain.

Then she pressed her breasts against him and they stood up, in each other, pushing each other against the wall. Her legs went around Jem's hips and went around his body. And Jem's errection was just very hard, it almost made it impossible for Jem to get out of her.

So he stayed in her, as they lay on the floor again, ignoring the bed completely and Jem's errection didn't stop, it just grew and so did his wildness.

Cecy made her hands go down to him and slowly did his errection stop.

When he was just out, he went in again and it went on like that...

4.Sickness
Cecily's POV

Cecily felt so tired at training and Will was very impatient and Cecy finally snapped.

"I am tired, I had a bad sleep last night, so just let me have dinner and we will work on it tomorrow okay?"

Will had stared at her and laughed, pushing her out of the door. Cecily attacked her dinner and went to her room.

She bathed a hot bath, when a slim figure slipped in her room. Jem.

They had decided to keep their relationship as a secret, always meeting at night, and only Jem went in her room without knocking.

He pulled off his clothes and looked at Cecily.

"We have enjoyed ourselves two weeks ago, and sofar we have been kissing only. Do you want to...?"

The last two weeks were only meetings at night, kissing and lying next to each other on Cecily's bed, but that Jem had gone into her room while she was bathing was a shocker. The nights she had slept very deep after their meetings, but in the morning she was still tired, because she slept 2 hours less than usually. She was hungry, because she slept so little and her mood was horrible.

"I would love to, Carstairs. But not as long as last time.", Cecily said, knowing that they had spent a long time last time.

Jem slipped in the bath smoothly touching her breasts and looked into her eyes. He started kissing her quickly, but within minutes he was in her.

The feeling made Cecily touch him again on the bottom and the water of the bath soaked around them.

When Jem came out just to go in again, Cecily stopped him, telling him to leave. Jem understood and he was gone within seconds.

Few Weeks Later

Cecily's POV

"Charlotte, I am sick. May I be excused for the next days?", Cecily asked. And as if to prove her point, Cecily threw up in a mug.

Charlotte nodded, comprehending and Cecily threw up even more in her room. When she bathed and Jem slipped in again, he looked at her body and said:"Are your breasts bigger than I imagined. God you are beautiful!"

Cecily cried out when he said that.

"Jem, listen. I am pregnant.", Cecily had just realized herself, but it made perfect sense.

"I have been missing my blood, my breasts are bigger, I sleep a lot, eat a lot and it has to be your child! I am just 15!"

Jem looked in shock. He had impregnanted a girl,the first time he made love, it was horrible.

"Get out of the water Cecily!" Jem said and stepped to her as she got out of the water. He touched her belly and Cecily did too. They both seemed to feel a bump and then they knew for sure.

They had a child.

They didn't say a word for a while, until Jem coughed, blood sprayed his arms and Cecily shrieked. She had never seen Jem cough out blood. Hastily she put on a nightrobe and pulled Jem out, his face was pale and his silver lidded eyes were barely open.

"Will!", Cecily called in the hall, still holding Jem, with both hands and within minutes Will appeared.

His blue eyes stared at Cecily in a nightrobe and he was just about to say something when he saw Jem, almost falling. Quickly, Will took Jem on his arms and together Will and Cecy hurried into Jem's room. He was still coughing hard when they got into his room and Will literally threw Jem on his bed and ran to a box, getting out Yin Fen, mixing it with water, forcing Jem to drink it.

"Will he be fine?", Cecily whispered. And Will looked at her. His eyes sad and he just said a word."Maybe." "Are his attacks usually this bad?", Cecy asked and Will shook his head softly and Cecily wimmered. Which made Will look at her.

"Get Charlotte, make her call the Silent Brothers, and before you go, put on a dress, everyone will think you and Jem had lain in a bed together,"Will said. Cecily winced and wondered if Will knew, that she was pregnant. She flung her nightrobe tighter around her body and went into her room, hastily changing into a plain dress.

Running down the stairs, into the drawing room and finding herself breathless. That was weird, because usually Cecily never felt breathless when she ran. It must be the child, she thought, but never did she think it would make her that tired, since she was just pregnant a few weeks.

Charlotte's head was bent over a letter she was writing and she was talking to Tessa softly. "Jem, another attack, Will with him, says you should call Silent Brothers!", Cecily panted, feeling her dress pressing a bit hard on her belly.

Charlotte immeadiatly looked alert and Tessa angry, she marched out of the room and Cecily stared wonderingly after the girl.

Jem's POV

Jem could barely remember being brought back into his room. He just remembered Cecily was pregnant with his child. He gagged down the water Will made him swallow, tasting the Yin Fen in it. He heard Will talking to Cecy but he was barely able to open his eyes when another fit attacked him.

"Will...", Jem murmured, his eyes barely open only feeling Will pushing his hair from his face and pressing his hand.

"Charlotte is coming with the Silent Brothers, don't worry, brother!", Will said full off care and Jem opened his eyes looking right into Will's blue ones.

"I am so sorry Will, you were right. I should have not started with Cecily, you should have never let me.", Jem started and Will looked at his parabatai.

"If it makes both of you happy I am glad, at least she is not pregnant, that would be the last. You guys didn't, right?", Will said full of confidence, but Jem clutched his hand harder.

"That day, when I broke my engagement with Tessa and you gave me permission I went to her room immeadiatly. We talked and then I kissed her again, I practically went on there where you had interrupted us, but then, I felt so errected.

I carried her naked to another room and then we did have it. And I impregnanted her.", Jem finished and Will stared at his best friend in shock and anger.

5. Wales
Cecily POV

Her blood pounded when Will motioned the door and pulled her out, when the Silent Brothers arrived.

"Go into your room, Cecily, I will be with you in a moment...", Will murmured into her ear and Cecy went into her room. She leaned against the wall, thinking about her situation, thinking what to do with the child. What a shame it would be!

Cecy closed her eyes and an image flooded over her, a dead child in her arms, dead Jem and tears welled in her eyes.

"Cecily, look...", Will started and Cecy flinched, knowing he would be lecturing her again.

"I allow you to be with Jem, but you are pregnant! What will you do with the child! You are not even married. There is only one more option Cecy, before you shame our family.

Go back to Wales, okay. Birth the child, give it away and come back. It's for the best!"

Cecily cried out in frustration. And tore of her clothes infront of her brother.

Will's eyes widened and he blinked.

"Touch me, touch my belly okay? That is what is of me and Jem, and you want me to give it away?"

Will stretched out his hand and touched the lightly swollen belly of his sister.